Yea his worldview is..something else. It’s just like if you’re going to put being nerdy on a pedestal like that, I don’t want any part of it. And the casual comments especially when trying to defend ‘nerd girls’ just ..wehhhh
yEAH EXACTLY that business about “nerd girls” was one of the first things that made me go “uhhhh…” about him
I was thinking about my profound lack of innate ‘morality’ or whatever recently (and no, not while watching ‘Hannibal’ lmao… okay, maybe a little bit during episode 2), and I think it’s weird that I’m basically two beings as far as morality and social justice and all that is concerned.
Like, if left completely to my own devices, I don’t care about a lot of things. I don’t care about -isms. I don’t care about rape and murder. I don’t care about anything I “should” care about. I am perverse and apathetic and I just unabashedly like bloody gory porny socially-horrible things mixed in with my nice normal things and most importantly I don’t give a fuck.
But I can’t pretend I wasn’t socialised human, with everything that entails (positive and negative). I care about people being racist because I am directly affected by it as long as I am in this particular meatsuit. I care about things like rape and abuse because as a human I care about other humans and their general safety and comfort, and don’t desire to see that safety and comfort compromised. I care about things because I generally like human beings and don’t support needless suffering.
That doesn’t prevent me from not innately understanding why I should care about anything. There are a lot of issues that secretly baffle me, but I know that they matter to people, and that is something I can parse. That’s really all.
Basically, I think with all things considered, I became a rather respectable and conscientious human being, and am only getting better at it. That says nothing for who I am when the person-suit is off.
he thinks hes so like….progressive. and its just. guy u dont even know how to deal with yr hair
i mean that kind of thing doesn’t bother me, i’d think it was just endearing and kind of silly but he… sometimes says stuff that’s really icky in the name of… i guess “being edgy and new and NERDY!” or something idfk
“We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.”—Anaïs Nin (via burtwo)
my phone always turns down the volume of the music when i plug my ear buds in and then when i turn it back up a message pops up like ‘u tryna go deaf bitch chill’ and i’m like but who the fuck asked you tho.
shoutout to all the other ex-gifted & talented/honor student/straight a/senior editor/star student/99th percentile/once-creative burn-outs who have, since high school, realized they are truly miniscule fish in a giant, endless ocean, criticized themselves to the point of creative paralysis, and participated in so much self-sabotage they no longer see the point of doing anything at all because they’re just going to ruin it for themselves anyway
this one’s for you
You’re right. Because over achievement and being serious about your education never counts towards success. I bet they’re all kicking themselves for being accepted by multiple prestigious colleges and their three digit salary.
n… o… it’s not bashing smart people, it’s a solidarity post… some of us were seen as nothing but “the smart kid” and gods forbid we liked other things, it didn’t matter because The Smart Kid had to be in all honours classes and AP classes and do hours of homework instead of playing outside and then by the time we get to high school we realise our entire life hinges on our brains and if we don’t Succeed then we are ultimately failures with potential that we surely threw away when we could have been top surgeons or… something… and now we’re nobodies, ah, so sad
really some of us just want to be… you know, fanfic writers
I dreamed about you. First I had to leave you a note because I ate part of your pies (???) and then you, me, and Jellyfish were going to go to a University together and she was going to play the flute. Also I bought you two sets of gloves and two winter hats, so there's that too.
MAI PIIIIIIIES D’:
lmao that sounds like a hilarious dream (yay gloves and hats! cosy things :3)
Ze doesn’t know too much about hirself anymore, not after whatever severed eight of hir ten lovely russet-and-gold tentacles, not after whatever marred hir left arm and burnt the lightning-strike scar just over hir sludge-slow heart, but ze does know that ze can’t stand looking at the world through the interrupted view of prison-cell bars, or feeling the slimy stone walls closing in on hir.
YOU PLAY?! (I am bleedingrabbit; let us be friends)
yes, well actually i just deleted and remade because i have this Thing about “stale” characters that i can’t reconnect with (and since i haven’t played since last year i’m pretty sure i need a new Baron Voltaire)
“Well-run libraries are filled with people because what a good library offers cannot be easily found elsewhere: an indoor public space in which you do not have to buy anything in order to stay. In the modern state there are very few sites where this is possible. The only others that come readily to my mind require belief in an omnipotent creator as a condition for membership. It would seem the most obvious thing in the world to say that the reason why the market is not an efficient solution to libraries is because the market has no use for a library. But it seems we need, right now, to keep re-stating the obvious. There aren’t many institutions left that fit so precisely Keynes’ definition of things that no one else but the state is willing to take on. Nor can the experience of library life be recreated online. It’s not just a matter of free books. A library is a different kind of social reality (of the three dimensional kind), which by its very existence teaches a system of values beyond the fiscal.”—Zadie Smith, in the New York Review of Books. (via soemily)
ATTENTION ATTENTION THIS IS A PSA sometimes i dont respond to replies and stuff bc im boring and i would reply with something useless like “yeah” it doesnt mean i didnt see and appreciate your comment/ message!!!